Lovers' Infiniteness By John Donne

If yet I have not all thy love,

Dear, I shall never have it all;

I cannot breathe one other sigh, to move,

Nor can intreat one other tear to fall;

And all my treasure, which should purchase thee—

Sighs, tears, and oaths, and letters—I have spent.

Yet no more can be due to me,

Than at the bargain made was meant;

If then thy gift of love were partial,

That some to me, some should to others fall,

         Dear, I shall never have thee all.

Or if then thou gavest me all,

All was but all, which thou hadst then;

But if in thy heart, since, there be or shall

New love created be, by other men,

Which have their stocks entire, and can in tears,

In sighs, in oaths, and letters, outbid me,

This new love may beget new fears,

For this love was not vow'd by thee.

And yet it was, thy gift being general;

The ground, thy heart, is mine; whatever shall

         Grow there, dear, I should have it all.

Yet I would not have all yet,

He that hath all can have no more;

And since my love doth every day admit

New growth, thou shouldst have new rewards in store;

Thou canst not every day give me thy heart,

If thou canst give it, then thou never gavest it;

Love's riddles are, that though thy heart depart,

It stays at home, and thou with losing savest it;

But we will have a way more liberal,

Than changing hearts, to join them; so we shall

         Be one, and one another's all. 

Counting days

178.
Yes sun would have to rise and set that many times more for us to meet.
I miss you too often to count and today after talking to you.....I counted how many days away you are from coming back to the United States of America. And it is 178. Well it is a little less than 6 months- which perhaps makes me feel better.
I want to tell you so many itsy bitsy details of my daily life here.....show you around my new house and introduce you to my new room mate.... Ask you to stay over for a week before you go to Miami and then do something fun or crazy every single day- Go on Hawthorne Trail to watch the Sunset, go to Kanapaha Gardens for an afternoon, run everyday, hang out in the downtown for a night, watch a drama at the hippodrome, go for a medieval fair, camp out one night near Paines Prairies ( it would be perfect if it is full moon night with clear sky or even no moon night with countless stars), go tubing, explore one of the many waterholes near here, go to SW Rec for group fitness and do Bosu or Yoga or Zumba together, wear sari and gopi dots to go to temple, snuggle together on the beanbag, make veggie burritos together or spring rolls, stay up all night ( well, almost all) and talk, giggle at each other's craziness....... So many many things......

So you do all your stuff in India fast fast and extremely well....Learn Kannada and a little naivety of the village folk...... You might be a little tanned and a little leaner- but bring back my Krit with all her chirpy pranks!!!!

Miss u.....
and yes it is only 177 now....

Ladybug Love

I have not been at Paines Prairie for a LONG time....I miss going on a drive with my face sticking out of  the window- eyes closed, feeling the wind on my face, as if it is the remedy to all maladies!!!! I miss beholding the moon, counting the stars and watching the shooting star dash.... I miss hearing the frogs croak, mosquitoes hum and the hustle of leaves, whispering to each other the secrets of the night.... but I miss hanging out with you even more.....

I miss our little closed door conversations, our chit- chat away from the boys, hearing you wish me "Good Morning Lady Bug" but most of all your laughter- the sound of sheer happiness and sometimes mischief.....

I miss your hugs, your endearing way of getting our lazy room mates to do things that are pending, your fiercely spirited games......

I realize what a blessing it is to have had all these at some point or another- It is true, I miss it- but I miss it in a content way.... knowing well that you are doing what you must do, to continue the victorious journey of life....I know you are making a difference, touching lives of people in way only you can do- enlivening it with your endless energy....

I am proud of your determination, your courage, your amicability, your resilience..... to be so away from home at a place with a new language, culture and people....

Although I miss everything about us, I know we miss nothing- we are as close across distances as we were when we lived together- distances are merely a dimension in the physical world- in the infinite dimensions of our world- loss of one little dimension means nothing- nothing at all.....

Sending you my ladybug love- across the oceans, seas, deserts, mountains and everything else that are between us.....